Because sometimes, life will just shit on you.

I am in pain. I am beyond in pain. I fucked my back up and I don't know how to make it stop. Had to sit through six straight hours of class today with a pillow behind my back only to discover that my phone no longer works and my boyfriend has had enough of me.

So not only can I not go anywhere, but I also have no way of contacting anybody for help with anything.

Serves me right, I suppose. I don't really know how to ask for help anyways. And I'm sick of being a little dependent bitch.

I keep having freakouts at night about death and zombie apocalypses - even had a couple nightmares last night about zombies and being kidnapped. I'm tired of it, to be honest. I'm so fucking tired. I can never sleep, I'm behind on everything and I'm contributing nothing to life. I feel... Like giving up. I don't know what else to do. I'm so fucking tired.

I just didn't want to be alone right now. I never like being alone. And I'm so fucking crippled and in so much pain...

I don't know what I did. I don't know how my life got so fucked up. But I'm tired of it. I'm so tired of it. I just want to curl up in my bed and never move again. Just cry and eat.

But I can't. Because I still need food and I'm running out of money and I have to go places but I can't. It's all fucked up.

I legitimately just hate my life right now. And I don't know how to make it stop.

Tell me how to make it stop.