Best friends?

Stuck in the waves
Ripples of the water
Knocking me down
Over and over

I think that I
May be addicted to the poison
I can’t seem to stop myself

I indulge

The only thing I think I know
Is that for you
I mean nothing
And I’m so tired

Is there no one on the planet
Who could ever possibly
Put another person first?
I’m not even on your list

I’m tired of being second best
To a hypocrite
I won’t do it
Just go away

The truth is that
You don’t want me
You want me to want you
You crave the attention

And then
When someone better comes along
You throw me away
Over and over

Fine
Wish granted
Consider me gone

I don’t belong to you anymore.

So fuck people
Fuck trying
Fuck all of this
And let it all burn

Because you’re not supposed
To be made to feel
Like utter worthless shit
By your supposed best friends.